What to make of this...

I'm inspired by more and more blogs lately. I'm especially trying my hardest to discover and keep up with blogs too, with the help of bloglovin, of course. Trying to listen to more music too. Lets see though, since we met last I was weary of how I'm going to keep up my motivation to blog. Yeah duh obviously I'm not really that dedicated... but I'm still thinking about doing it. But I just never do it, that's the problem. Haha if it were only as easy as thinking about it.
I'm not disciplined at all. The most disciplined I've been in my whole entire life i going 8 (almost 9) months without drinking soda. If you do your math that means I made (and kept) my new years resolution: to quit drinking soda/energy drinks. I used to drink 3 to 4 Rockstar energy drinks a day back when I lived in Las Vegas and probably one or two during my first semester in college. I made that resolution because my boyfriend always complained that I didn't drink enough water and that I always had soda. Which was true.... but to my defense, I really liked soda. Anyway, whatever. So I haven't drank any soda whatsoever since January 1st, 2011. But yeah, I drink a crapload of Arizona Green Tea and the occasional fruit punch. I still get that sugary stuff.... just without any carbonation.
The idea is that if I can quit one of my favorite drinks, I can quit eating mega unhealthily. It's really hard, it's almost as if its not my choice. Like I don't have an option, my body just kinda gets in the car and drives to Taco Bell by itself. Lame excuse, but it's feels real haha. I really do want to lose weight though. Its embarrassing. I don't like looking like this. But I like food more than I like anything else, what can I make of it?
I suppose that if I can make healthy choices about soda, I can make healthy choices about food... right?
I've boiled it down to this: I can decline the junk food, but what do I eat instead! That's the million dollar question.

Aside from that, I have a shopping problem.
Time for bed, goodnight.

How do you get motivation to stick around?

You know how when you're like chillen browsing the internet at like 3am in the morning and all of a sudden you feel like doing something super productive? How do you get that motivation to stay? I mean like I really want to do the stuff that I think about when I'm up in the middle of the night but I guess I just don't because it's kind of stupid to go jogging at 3am, or like I know I'm gonna be really lazy to put away all my paint if I feel like painting something, OR when I finally get the feeling of doing a blog post and I sit down and do it all, I don't want to finish it because I'm lazy. How am I supposed to continue what I do if I'm so lazy!?

So whats been happening lately is that I've been indulging hardcore in really bad food. Usually I can eat it and just be whatever about it yet lately I've been feeling so guilty... like hide in my cave/never go out to see the world/backing out of plans with people/never see the light of day guilty. Plus I can't seem to get ahold of that 3am motivation during the day when it matters. For example, I'd much rather be sitting on my bed eating soft and chewy chocolate chip cookies typing this crap instead of out getting exercise and being healthier. I have so many excuses, but I'm too lazy to discipline myself.

I can reason with myself by saying things like: I have to work tomorrow, I already went to costco today so that's enough for the day, blah blah... just stuff that at the moment sounds right, if only to give me some type of relief of guilt or something like that. I don't know haha, but seriously, I have so much planned but I have so much trouble finishing what I start.

I think maybe my problem can be resolved with making lists. I like to complete stuff off of lists. But I lose lists constantly.
Maybe I'll just be lazy forever.
Probably.

Do you trust certain colors?

I prefer greens and yellows. All of my skincare and hygiene related stuff all has green packages. Most of my jewelry and stuff is yellow. Other than jewelry, I like to pick yellow school supplies.

I don't know why, I just really lean towards packaging that is either green or yellow. Odd, isn't it? I also adore anything that is white tea related.

A lot of my furniture is pink. I have two pink shelve-y type things and a pink mirror and pink storage boxes. And if you couldn't tell, I like to get pink tech things (like my phone, DS, camera (it's red but it's close enough), wallet (kinda pinkish), and my hair brush.

I was just noticing this a while ago as I was taking a shower.. everything I was using was green! Anyway. Yeah.

What is in my purse!

I never really know what to blog about... I wanted to start this off as like, a beauty blog type thing.. but nah. I don't want to be suffocated with a label on what I can write about. Plus I don't have enough money to sustain beauty blogging. Haha. But moreover I just wanna blog about fun stuff and my life and stuff I like. Anyway!

I figured I'd (re)start this blog off with a "What's in my purse" thing. . I watch these on youtube because I'm nosey and I like them. So, there.

This is the front of my purse.. It's a Nine West bag. I got it at Burlington Coat Factory in Las Vegas during Christmas 2010. I think it was like... Less than $40 or something. There were a few different styles and stuff there, and I was having trouble deciding between a black one and this leopard print. My mom really pushed me to get the print, so I did. What I like most about it is that it has handles long enough to put on my shoulder, and a longer strap to carry kind of like a satchel.

I guess I really like Burlington because sometimes you can find some really cool stuff, but one of the downsides is that they carry defected things. As you can see, this bag has some.. glue (?) or something on the back side of the bag. But whatever, I couldn't tell till after I had gotten back home probably a month later that there was this crap on the back. It blends into the print plus it's on the back so whatever!

That furry thing is a "fox" tail that I got at Paniolo Trading. My boyfriend bought that for me for Valentines day, haha. What a weird gift, right? Well I had been lemming for it for a while because I'm a Japanese trend junkie. And a former scene kid, but whatever, I'm not gonna get into that. I used to wear it on my phone which was pretty obnoxious so I put it on my purse instead. It's not really tailored well at all, it's kind of just the skin with a hole in it and this thing to tie it to stuff (I don't know what to call it haha). But whatever, it's lasted this far and its purely for fun. If it breaks, it breaks, such is life.

This here is all of the things that I keep in my purse. Starting at the top left is my wallet, which I got from this store in Waikiki called Mahina. It was overpriced, but I liked it enough to buy it. I keep going back to this wallet because it keeps all my things organized really nicely and has enough compartments for all my cards and whatnot.

Going right is some gum (which sucks, I hate that gum. My boyfriend gets a lot from costco so I just mooch off of him), hand sanitizer (which I don't really like too much but just keep it for those "just in case" moments), earbud things (again, which I don't care too much for. I just like the color), and my FAVORITE hand lotion of all time! It smells so good, it's the Orly Rich Renewal in "Peace". It's a spiced vanilla and white tea smell, and I LOVE THINGS THAT ARE WHITE TEA SMELLING and SPICY. Enough said, I love that lotion.

Next up is that red thing which is my pencil case. I don't really carry anything to write on, but who cares, I carry the pencil case. One day it just kinda went into my purse and now I don't take it out anymore.

Last for the top row is my Nintendo DS lite. It's old, it's been through better days. The screen is really really scratched up... but I just got Cooking Mama 3 so I'm carrying it around a lot because that game is addicting. I lost the piece that covers where you can put the old school games (the part at the bottom) and I lost the stylus. I use the pens from my pencil case to play my games now haha.

From the bottom left is my hair brush. I always lose things but this hair brush has sticked it out for years. I used colored electrical tape to tape red, yellow, and green on the handle, but over time it kinda fell off so now it's just green.

That little rainbow pouch with the cute girl on it carries my girly things: things like my tampons, midol, birth control, and some Softlips chapstick. I love that little pouch thingy.

Next is one of those purse holder things that my Grandma gave to me. This thing is really cheaply made and no where near as effective as a purse holder like most on the market out there, but I keep it just if I don't wanna hold my purse or put it on my lap. But no matter what the purse usually falls because the weight isn't distributed evenly enough. I don't really know why I keep it int here, but I'll tell you the truth, it's probably not going anywhere. Haha.

Next are my keys. Or well, key... I don't have many keys. I have one, actually. Yeah.

That horsey thing is my media case. It's big enough to hold my two iPods (I'll get into why I have two later..) and my camera, which is pretty cool. I usually end up just having one iPod in there at a time just because I use an iPod when I'm in drawing class or in the car. My camera, however is always in that case (but of course not in the picture, because I'm using it to take the picture, duh haha).

Lastly are my two iPods. I have a 2gb iPod touch that I got for Christmas in 2009 that I use primarily for games when I'm bored, and a 160gb iPod Classic video classic thing that I actually found at an airport!! Yeah I found it on the floor in an airport. I didn't want to take it to lost and found because I didn't want to, so I kept it. It's freaking 160gb for goodness sake!! I don't even have enough of anything to fill that bad boy up! But I do have all of my music EVER in that iPod.

What's not pictured besides my camera is my phone, which is almost always in my purse unless I'm at home, which I am right now. I have a LG phone which is the asian version of the LG dLite, which is better because it has a front facing camera and much better features, although it is much slower. My boyfriends mother has the regular dLite, which is really different. Maybe one day I'll do a comparison.

Alright all, so I hoped this kind of gave some sort of insight on who I am based on what is inside of my purse. I don't like to keep too many things in my purse and I generally like smaller purses. The purse I have now is a little bit bigger than what I prefer, but it's good enough. I really want to start blogging and writing more often. Wish me luck.

UNDER CONSTRUCTION

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